Mandy.The Fashionista

I miss you so much. I have no idea why but I do. I dont even talk to you that much. I am not even sure if you consider me as friend but I still miss you. It’s stupid it makes me think I’m lame and dumb and girly which i hate. You Mfucker you are so cute and hot, at least I think you are because I am crushing on you. And lets be honest I think you know but you never say a thing about it. It drives me crazy. I hate you and I love you, And you are so funny and every time I think about dave you come to my mind, again drives me mad. I am pretty sure I would pick you over dave and that is not an easy decision my friend. I mean everyone would fucking choose dave he is so gorgeous and that beard… I love beards, i do. I don’t know what to do. Everytime I feel like talking to you I stop and I give my best not to say ‘hi’. and even when you are online and I dont say anything to you, I’m just happy to see that you’re online. I hate the fact that that is the truth. I hate that you make me feel like this… It is so dumb that I am writing this as message to you but no way jose that I am hitting ‘enter’. And you know the stupidest thing ever is? I fantasy a life with you intead of fantasing shagging you or something hot… no, my fantasy is cleaning your car with you… or you going over to my house and watch a movie and do stuff together. Again i HATE YOU FOR THAT. BUT IT’S NOT YOUR FAULT I KNOW.